Last month, 42 years have past me by. What can I say about that? I guess I have wasted a lot of them with 19 years of addiction. Don’t miss what I am saying here because I am Blessed because I went through those 19 years of addiction and now I see things in a whole new light. I had some really awesome highs but some really low, lows too. I guess that is what life is about riding the roller coaster.
Everyone I know is on this same roller coaster of life. Life is really awesome when you are driving forward towards where God is leading you. Things get tricky when you decide to take a detour off the path. Mine was 19 years!
All I can say is through those 19 years of addictions, I have learned so much about myself. I have learned what I can handle and what I can’t. I have an addicted personality so I know in my heart that I have to be careful at any kind of overindulgence or it can become an addiction.
I do think we all are like that though, that is why the Bible talks alot about keeping a sober mind and spirit. I 100% understand now what God is talking about. When we start to allow ourselves to have grey lines instead of black & white, that is when we get into trouble.
There are so many times I have seen people including myself say thats a grey area to then fall into that trap. For example, some people believe they have a love story that was Blessed from the beginning from God. Here is the problem, that love story came as a result of cheating. I am not convinced even though some try and argue this that God wants people to cheat so that he can get you to the right person.
Do I think that you can turn your life back to God and then he can Bless you where you are? OF COURSE! I am a prime example of that from my awful past. But to say that God brought two people together to meet who were already married to then destroy a marriage to bring the two together is not right.
Yes I know people who that happened to and now they are happy but I do not believe that God wanted it to happen like that. Granted this is an extreme example but this is what happens when you start seeing shades of grey. To God all things are Black & White. Its that simple even if you don’t agree with it.
Don’t think I am judging here because I am far from that. I am pointing out how seeing grey areas can take you down roads that God is not at. Thank God no matter what we have done in the past, he will still forgive us because we all to a degree have done things that fall along shades of grey.
As I look back over the years even though at the time I didn’t think I saw shades of grey but I really did see many shades and it took me down the wrong slope. Shades of grey will take you to places you never intended to go and keep you there longer than you intended to stay. Shades of grey is bondage to you. It’s a trap. It will DESTROY you!
But when you see black and white, you start to see Gods way and that will change your life. Going Gods way, he will take you to places you didn’t intend to go and accomplish things in and through you that you could not do alone.
Be Inspired or Be Left Behind!
Chris Benton